[ She stays still for her. Eyes shut, and smile tucked into the corner of her mouth. Something whimsical to all of this. Not sure where to go with it all - but finding herself unable to care either way. Warm and light and happy to have her in close. ]
(You are to me. It feels so good to finally be able to be with other people. But with you especially...)
[ There is something to that, even for Ilde. Other people had been there, physically, but they had all kept a deep emotional divide from one another. There was no point to doing otherwise, not when death claimed another and another and another, not when they were all waiting to die. Watching the phoenix grow larger and larger every night when the Godking would release it into the sky.
But Ilde did know about tenderness, despite it all. Dreus had taught her. For all his evils, he had shown her how to treasure what one loved most. To keep them safe and whole, no matter what. Fuckin' ominous as shit........ ]
(I was not so kind when we first met, but you made it very easy to change my mind.)
(You don't have to be, if you don't want to. I'd have you as you wanted to be. )
[ Can't stop, won't stop, probably aren't very good at stopping.
That being said, she shifts herself up then, another kiss, this one is not so delicate so much as taken quickly. A peck she steals with a giggle. Eyes lowered to watch her mouth, eyelashes soft against her cheek, the pink flush up her neck and in her cheeks. A little bit embarrassement, a little bit the heat of being so close and kissing her. ]
(I think I like this.)
[ nope they're still gross and awful. someone stop them. ]
[ Although Ilde's smile does not fade, there is something serious there to talk about, so she rubs the back of Angel's hand with her thumb thoughtlessly. ]
(I have been... ) [ Afraid isn't the word. It really doesn't encompass her emotions at all, the hunger and delight that also comes with the uncertainty and guilt. ] (Conflicted, on what is right now.)
[ And if anyone knows what she means it is assuredly Angel. All the things different between their troubles are set dressing to the core kernel. Vaunted as precious, special, perfect so long as they did the duty tasked to them. One angel above keeping watch, the other one below tending the earth.
But only so long as they did the duty tasked to them. ]
(It was not right for women like us to be powerful. But I am also tired of being powerless.)
[ She swallows, her eyes down. Nodding, she understands. Jack would be writihing in rage to know the things she had done - least of all needing other people but him. In pressing these feather light moments against Ilde's skin. He reserved the right to her love.
But it makes her only more determined now. ]
(We are not there anymore. Here, we need to be powerful. As... far as I understand. The hive is as strong as we are. )
[ She knows. She knows it rationally but shaking loose this piece, like a physical thing inside of her body where all that guilt collects... It's difficult. Always easier said than done.
She does not know what it will take to sever it. ]
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( You are to me. It feels so good to finally be able to be with other people. But with you especially... )
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But Ilde did know about tenderness, despite it all. Dreus had taught her. For all his evils, he had shown her how to treasure what one loved most. To keep them safe and whole, no matter what.
Fuckin' ominous as shit........]( I was not so kind when we first met, but you made it very easy to change my mind. )
[ Ew gross, bitches, stop flirting. ]
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[ Can't stop, won't stop, probably aren't very good at stopping.
That being said, she shifts herself up then, another kiss, this one is not so delicate so much as taken quickly. A peck she steals with a giggle. Eyes lowered to watch her mouth, eyelashes soft against her cheek, the pink flush up her neck and in her cheeks. A little bit embarrassement, a little bit the heat of being so close and kissing her. ]
( I think I like this. )
[ nope they're still gross and awful. someone stop them. ]
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( I have been... ) [ Afraid isn't the word. It really doesn't encompass her emotions at all, the hunger and delight that also comes with the uncertainty and guilt. ] ( Conflicted, on what is right now. )
[ And if anyone knows what she means it is assuredly Angel. All the things different between their troubles are set dressing to the core kernel. Vaunted as precious, special, perfect so long as they did the duty tasked to them. One angel above keeping watch, the other one below tending the earth.
But only so long as they did the duty tasked to them. ]
( It was not right for women like us to be powerful. But I am also tired of being powerless. )
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But it makes her only more determined now. ]
( We are not there anymore. Here, we need to be powerful. As... far as I understand. The hive is as strong as we are. )
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[ She knows. She knows it rationally but shaking loose this piece, like a physical thing inside of her body where all that guilt collects... It's difficult. Always easier said than done.
She does not know what it will take to sever it. ]
( It will come with time, I have to believe this. )