(If you could be told, you had no point of comparison to know the truth. You cannot relive someone else's mistakes. It offers them power over you.)
[These words may be insensitive, but she can only curb so much of herself.
In truth, Lexa wonders if Angel knows how cruel she has been. Would she accept that Lexa left the girl she loved to die along with the rest of her people? Would she believe that Lexa left hundreds of her people to die, declaring that victory came on the back of sacrifice? She has killed countless times, so many times that she bears no marks for it. It became commonplace for her, and she only hasn't killed since becoming a Host because she understands that the worlds they've visited have different demands.
And she's had to adapt.
But she's even considered taking the lives of Hosts so that they would not be dragged down. She's considered staging events to ensure that they prune the weak.
These are thoughts she has, but doesn't share. Though if they knew her well enough, they would know to expect them.]
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[These words may be insensitive, but she can only curb so much of herself.
In truth, Lexa wonders if Angel knows how cruel she has been. Would she accept that Lexa left the girl she loved to die along with the rest of her people? Would she believe that Lexa left hundreds of her people to die, declaring that victory came on the back of sacrifice? She has killed countless times, so many times that she bears no marks for it. It became commonplace for her, and she only hasn't killed since becoming a Host because she understands that the worlds they've visited have different demands.
And she's had to adapt.
But she's even considered taking the lives of Hosts so that they would not be dragged down. She's considered staging events to ensure that they prune the weak.
These are thoughts she has, but doesn't share. Though if they knew her well enough, they would know to expect them.]