[Lexa does not want to feel guilt because she sees it as a burden. That does not mean she is cold and unfeeling, but it does mean that she is able to make decisions that are questionable for the sake of all her people. She has only acted on behalf of her guilt once, but she stands by that decision and that agenda. Though members of Skaikru rejected her offer, she knew it was the right decision. She does not regret it (just as she cannot regret sending her soldiers out to die by their hands—it is a necessary choice as a leader).
But she recognizes this feeling. She has seen it in Clarke's eyes as she pressed a knife against her throat, and it was this feeling which dragged a rare apology out between her lips. Seeing someone so burdened by guilt makes Lexa uneasy, and some part of her wants to stop it.
It would be easier for others to not feel that at all. They will be more productive that way. That's what her logic tells her.
She knows human nature is not so simple. She knows that she's not so simple, and that she's had to train herself into being the person that she is today.]
(You treat it as if one is the endpoint of the other. They are not the same.)
[Because if she can do nothing to stop these deaths, if they ultimately fail in their goal to stop the beings who seek to kill them, then she will either be dead or will be lost in an abyss of guilt. It's not wise.]
(You can care without taking responsibility for all of them. It will be better for you in the long run. You will hurt less. You did nothing to cause that death. ) [But then, causality may not be the issue at all. Still, she finds herself worrying (perhaps surprisingly, she hasn't decided yet) of what this will end up costing Angel.]
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But she recognizes this feeling. She has seen it in Clarke's eyes as she pressed a knife against her throat, and it was this feeling which dragged a rare apology out between her lips. Seeing someone so burdened by guilt makes Lexa uneasy, and some part of her wants to stop it.
It would be easier for others to not feel that at all. They will be more productive that way. That's what her logic tells her.
She knows human nature is not so simple. She knows that she's not so simple, and that she's had to train herself into being the person that she is today.]
( You treat it as if one is the endpoint of the other. They are not the same. )
[Because if she can do nothing to stop these deaths, if they ultimately fail in their goal to stop the beings who seek to kill them, then she will either be dead or will be lost in an abyss of guilt. It's not wise.]
( You can care without taking responsibility for all of them. It will be better for you in the long run. You will hurt less. You did nothing to cause that death. ) [But then, causality may not be the issue at all. Still, she finds herself worrying (perhaps surprisingly, she hasn't decided yet) of what this will end up costing Angel.]