[ For Angel "all" is easy. She is cut down here, and it grates that one town could be too much for her, where once she had been -- a whole planet, a whole moon, a space station that could hold thousands of people and the finite worlds encased in their technology. She had seen so much suffering, more than she could put to words, and there had never been much choice about it.
When Jack had caught her upset, his response had been to ask her to be cold about, to justify himself. 'See? Won't it be better when they're all gone? We can wipe them all out and make the universe a better place.' Because the fact was she had caused more death, more destruction, helped release such terrible things upon the world, than she could even put in a way that was understandable to the suffering she had allowed. She had been wrapped in this guilt for far too long, it was guided her, and kept her focused. Even if now, the pain of it was overwhelming.
( It ruins her, that she's still a product of Jack, even if it was to be defined in his negative space. ) ]
(Because I would rather use this guilt to make me a better person, than be the kind that doesn't feel it at all.)
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When Jack had caught her upset, his response had been to ask her to be cold about, to justify himself. 'See? Won't it be better when they're all gone? We can wipe them all out and make the universe a better place.' Because the fact was she had caused more death, more destruction, helped release such terrible things upon the world, than she could even put in a way that was understandable to the suffering she had allowed. She had been wrapped in this guilt for far too long, it was guided her, and kept her focused. Even if now, the pain of it was overwhelming.
( It ruins her, that she's still a product of Jack, even if it was to be defined in his negative space. ) ]
( Because I would rather use this guilt to make me a better person, than be the kind that doesn't feel it at all. )