[Having the desire to protect and care for her people is one thing. Extending it beyond them is a near impossible task. When she looks at the lives lost in Mount Weather, she sees them as a necessary evil. She feels more connected to what happened there because of the pain she wrought in the people she does care about, rather than because lives were lost. So many of her own people had been lost to the Mountain Men. It's difficult to muster up the same sense of responsibility for "all" people.
It's the same when it comes to the other Hosts. They are still a necessary link, with some preferred over others. She thinks it would be wise to protect herself from the pain of feeling someone die. No, not thinks—knows.
That's how she processes things.]
(Many of us will die. That is why there are so few Hosts around beyond us. How will you manage if you feel such great guilt for all of them?) [Some part of her recognizes that she's being unfair in asking these types of questions of Angel now. She awaits her answer to see if it's a good idea to proceed, or to return later.
She's learned at least that much about her tendency to push others.]
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It's the same when it comes to the other Hosts. They are still a necessary link, with some preferred over others. She thinks it would be wise to protect herself from the pain of feeling someone die. No, not thinks—knows.
That's how she processes things.]
( Many of us will die. That is why there are so few Hosts around beyond us. How will you manage if you feel such great guilt for all of them? ) [Some part of her recognizes that she's being unfair in asking these types of questions of Angel now. She awaits her answer to see if it's a good idea to proceed, or to return later.
She's learned at least that much about her tendency to push others.]